In India Again and Fucking bored with life

OK I am in India again.For 36 days this time.I am getting bored and I am having a midlife crisis at the age of 27.My mom and dad wants me to get married.I am still not sure what I want.Getting married seems like the end of my life.I still feel like I haven't done anything with my life although I have done been in situations which a normal person wouldn't be in.But I feel like I played it too safe in my life that I missed out on a lot.And I am fucking bored with everything.I used to watch 2 three movies a day,in fact I watched so many movies that I ran out of good movies in English and started watching french,Korean,Japanese,Swedish movies etc with subtitles.I used to be a huge David Lynch fan,I still haven't watched his latest movie even after having it in my movie archive.I finished Stephen King's book "The Stand"(which was 1420 pages long)in 4 days.Now I have his latest book "Under The Dome" with me and i still haven't got to the quarter of that book.I just bought Ayn Rand's sociological fiction work "Atlas Shrugged"which showcases her unique Philosophy "Objectivism" and I haven't even started reading it.I wanted to go to Europe this year to see the sights,but i just don't feel like it.Fuck I am so bored with my life.

Things until Now

Ok,

Its been like 3 months since i have posted anything new.In this time I got myself a new apartment for three months.Is being booted out of that apartment after two months.Because i have been suckered.I got my self a brand new pc using almost the sort of money an ordinary person spends in one year.I bought myself all the books i wanted.But in the end i am left with a big hole in my life,because there is nothing for me to look forwrd to....

All the superficial things i always wanted has been done.There is nothing left except maybe the world tour I have been looking forward to.But not this year,but i have to start saving some money and start investing in land or something.Anyway save money in general!!!!!


Earlier I said I don't want to do the world tour,It is because if I do that too I would have nothing left to look forward to.

anyway here is the my ramblings for the past 3 months,hope to have some more soon

Missing the missing Cat

I had a cat whom I named Tigger after the character from Winnie,the pooh--the cartoon.He was with us for an year and mysteriously disappeared last week.Everyone of us miss him.He was lazy,sleeps all day and he was a great looking cat(although we called him Tigger he was more like Garfield).I don't know where he is.He usually never goes out but he disappeared last week suddenly.Even for mating seasons they don't disappear like that.He was a member of this family and in his quite way was with us during every sort of difficulty we had to face last year.He was our good luck charm.People say he probably died but I refuse to believe that.I don't care what the truth is!I believe he is probably traveling the world and having the adventure of a lifetime.
"This post is dedicated to you Tigger,you are irreplaceable.You will always have a place in this family.So break every rules and have the adventure of a life time!!!!!!!!

From My family

Marriage at Palakkad

I went to my best friend Firoz's cousin's marriage at Palakkad the other day.It was fun just traveling from Cochin to Palakkad in a bus.Didn't sleep for 24 hrs.just me and some friends traveling in the night.when we were traveling through Thrissur i saw the house of somebody i thought i knew but was wrong.she was my favorite person while i was growing up.But when i grew up I learned some truths about her that shook me through my soul.It was the first genuine shock experience of my life.But it taught me a valuable lesson that you can never take anything by appearances alone.what we presume to know about a person might be far from the truth as possible.While i continued traveling i thought i saw people and houses whom we were close with but has drifted apart,not because anything but human nature, Ego, Greed etc.I really do wish life was simpler and not filled with so many politics and psychological warfare as of now.But that is never going to happen so what we can do is make everyday life into a challenge and try to over come it,take everything with a pinch of salt,never trust anybody other than our selves and never expect anything.If we don't expect anything from people we will be happy if they do something and will not be disappointed if nobody cares about you(the latter is what usually happens)