In India Again and Fucking bored with life

OK I am in India again.For 36 days this time.I am getting bored and I am having a midlife crisis at the age of 27.My mom and dad wants me to get married.I am still not sure what I want.Getting married seems like the end of my life.I still feel like I haven't done anything with my life although I have done been in situations which a normal person wouldn't be in.But I feel like I played it too safe in my life that I missed out on a lot.And I am fucking bored with everything.I used to watch 2 three movies a day,in fact I watched so many movies that I ran out of good movies in English and started watching french,Korean,Japanese,Swedish movies etc with subtitles.I used to be a huge David Lynch fan,I still haven't watched his latest movie even after having it in my movie archive.I finished Stephen King's book "The Stand"(which was 1420 pages long)in 4 days.Now I have his latest book "Under The Dome" with me and i still haven't got to the quarter of that book.I just bought Ayn Rand's sociological fiction work "Atlas Shrugged"which showcases her unique Philosophy "Objectivism" and I haven't even started reading it.I wanted to go to Europe this year to see the sights,but i just don't feel like it.Fuck I am so bored with my life.

The Return of the Native

Hey its been a while since I posted because frankly I was ashamed to post because I was without a job and it would feel like too much whining on my part if I kept complaining about it.It seems finally the day has come to stop this silence and time to move on.


So much happened in these few months, went on a tour with friends,got into a fight with my brother.Learned how to make a person feel bad,etc.

What have I learned from all this???

Nothing,I guess.I am still human and i might still make mistakes but will try as hard as i can to learn from my previous mistakes.


So as I was saying got a new job in U.A.E


So I am moving towards my destiny, to the place I was born,the place I spent most of my childhood,the place my dad spent 30 years working and at last after a decade it is finally...........



The Return of the Native.

My Religion

I thought i would talk about religion a little bit.About MY religious beliefs,that is.


I am a Muslim by birth but could say that i am an agnostic by beliefs.I have an orthodox Muslim family.But they try to brainwash me with religious beliefs especially my mom.But i believe one should have the freedom and the ability to question his purpose and truth of existence.I refuse to believe that we were created as a fluke of nature but i refuse to believe the fairy tales told by the religions also...As far as i have seen most of the biggest wars in the world was fought over what religion other people believes in.But the crappiest thing is this doesn't affect people in any fundamental way as human beings,but every religion now seems like an excuse for people to indulge in their greed for money and power.Most of the religious leaders in most of the religions are hypocrites.In Islam the previous generation of old bastards who think they control the destiny of their flock thought that television was one of the greatest evil,but now every asshole wants their own TV program because they know that it brings them money and fame.

What i want to basically say is why doesn't these bastards admit what they are,Horny,Greedy or whatever instead of being holier than though??????

Catcher In the Rye

Ok,while browsing through a community about existentialism i found that many people found themselves just like the hero in catcher in the rye.This is good,well that is it is good to know that i am not alone in the universe.But why do i don't ever meet people with whom i can communicate about these meaningless lives we lead.Life has become so heavy that it is a chore just to move on to the other day.I wanted to become part of the materialistic society and just make some money,but my mind wont let it be....

Existentialism

Ok.today i found out what is the name of the feeling and apprehensiveness i have been facing for sometime,It is known as Existentialism.Which means we feel disconnected from society and we feel life is meaningless and we live on just to move to the next day.There is no great purpose in life,we live so that we can just move from one meaningless motion to another without any purpose or direction.Well,is there a state for one's being other than these moods.I feel so helpless that religious zealousness and total mind numbing fuckery is all we have as an answer for this dilemma.