In India Again and Fucking bored with life

OK I am in India again.For 36 days this time.I am getting bored and I am having a midlife crisis at the age of 27.My mom and dad wants me to get married.I am still not sure what I want.Getting married seems like the end of my life.I still feel like I haven't done anything with my life although I have done been in situations which a normal person wouldn't be in.But I feel like I played it too safe in my life that I missed out on a lot.And I am fucking bored with everything.I used to watch 2 three movies a day,in fact I watched so many movies that I ran out of good movies in English and started watching french,Korean,Japanese,Swedish movies etc with subtitles.I used to be a huge David Lynch fan,I still haven't watched his latest movie even after having it in my movie archive.I finished Stephen King's book "The Stand"(which was 1420 pages long)in 4 days.Now I have his latest book "Under The Dome" with me and i still haven't got to the quarter of that book.I just bought Ayn Rand's sociological fiction work "Atlas Shrugged"which showcases her unique Philosophy "Objectivism" and I haven't even started reading it.I wanted to go to Europe this year to see the sights,but i just don't feel like it.Fuck I am so bored with my life.

This wasn't what my life was supposed to be like

As above

Things until Now

Ok,

Its been like 3 months since i have posted anything new.In this time I got myself a new apartment for three months.Is being booted out of that apartment after two months.Because i have been suckered.I got my self a brand new pc using almost the sort of money an ordinary person spends in one year.I bought myself all the books i wanted.But in the end i am left with a big hole in my life,because there is nothing for me to look forwrd to....

All the superficial things i always wanted has been done.There is nothing left except maybe the world tour I have been looking forward to.But not this year,but i have to start saving some money and start investing in land or something.Anyway save money in general!!!!!


Earlier I said I don't want to do the world tour,It is because if I do that too I would have nothing left to look forward to.

anyway here is the my ramblings for the past 3 months,hope to have some more soon

Back in Abu Dhabi 12-02-2009 to ?????

10 years,Its hard to believe it has been that long since I been here.When I left I never expected to come back to this place again.But life takes strange turns.It never turns out like we expect.Well its just been a week so let us see what the future will bring.

The Return of the Native

Hey its been a while since I posted because frankly I was ashamed to post because I was without a job and it would feel like too much whining on my part if I kept complaining about it.It seems finally the day has come to stop this silence and time to move on.


So much happened in these few months, went on a tour with friends,got into a fight with my brother.Learned how to make a person feel bad,etc.

What have I learned from all this???

Nothing,I guess.I am still human and i might still make mistakes but will try as hard as i can to learn from my previous mistakes.


So as I was saying got a new job in U.A.E


So I am moving towards my destiny, to the place I was born,the place I spent most of my childhood,the place my dad spent 30 years working and at last after a decade it is finally...........



The Return of the Native.

Entry into late twenties

Ok the day i have been dreading for the past few years is hear.I am officially part of the late twenties group.I am 26.People would probably want to know what i have accomplished in this 26 years.NOTHING.Yup thats right,nothing.I have wasted my life away and every day people look at me with pity and compare me to people who have accomplished much.But i have one better i am fat,yeah seriously fat and everybody including my parents tell me that i look like shit.Thank you everybody that is exactly what i needed.By now my best friend is not my best friend any more.......Probably the whole world knows about this because i whine about it a lot these days.Most probably i will more fat,more miserable and more of a loser than today.You know what i want for my birthday,i want a giant robot from one of those manga serial like Macross i used to watch while i was small.So that i can use it and kill all the motherfucking bastards who has the number one priority to judge me...


P.S----This birthday was better than the one the year before and the year before that,,where everybody forgot my birthday including my parents.Last year everybody in firstsource(the firm i used to work before)knew it was my birthday because i gave them candy on that day but forgot to have a birthday party because i usually take charge of birthdays and other stuff in the post paid section.But what pissed me off was that few days later there was a party for eldho which i took charge but at the last minute they had the shitty idea to put my name in the cake....Seriously it would look like i arrange for my own birthday party,,,How pathetic is that...



OK ANYWAY HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY TO ME AND I HOPE THE BASTARD WHO IS RESPONSIBLE FOR CREATING THIS BIRTHDAY CRAP DIED OF SYPHLIS......

The artistic merit and the functional purpose of being an asshole..

I would prefer being an asshole than a hypocrite.
I admit that i am a greedy asshole.But i believe i am not enough of an asshole.I still like and is faithful to a few people.But i am trying to change that too.You see people who treat you like crap doesn't care about you or how you feel.They just want wants their things to get done...So the feeling when you are treated like crap is really the worst there is.So be the asshole and treat others like crap so that you are oblivious to other peoples problems and you only care about yours.So when you live such a cold existence nobody or nothing can hurt you.What you need to understand is that people you probably like and care about will probably treat you like crap some other day in the future.So what you need to do is treat them like crap first so that you gain the advantage..
But please realize that you are an asshole,don't delude yourself into being a hypocrite by claiming that what you did was right.A perfect asshole doesn't do anything for others.But you will be happy,because nobody can hurt you in this crappy thing we call life..